decisions decisions, sigh wish i could talk to someone about it. someone who doesnt knw me, someone who will be just, someone who doesnt know ANYBODY! but someone i can trust. I need you. where are u?

 exams tmr!!!

and then weeee after wednesday 

 yay!!! i m gonna go home this summer!!!:D:D how exciting:D

again...pre exam post here :) preparing for my final of the final exam here in aberdeen, so excited about graduation, there s so much going on after exams! fingers crossed everything goes well, just another wk more to exams, study study study practise practise practise, i pray that the 10 of us will pass with flying colours!! make our parents proud!!:D

so whats coming up post exams??

weee 

MANCHESTER to visit fleur with fabian
LIVER POOL mayb
EDINBURGH for vincent s wedding
shadowing in cardiology

THE LONG AWAITED 2JUL PARENTS COMING!!! GRANny too!!
GRADUATION!!!!!
HOME with KB!!

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

dear journal,
i think this site is officially- dead! haha! nobody reads this site anymore, which means...cheng cheng cheng!* i can write whatever i like on this site! hhaha...mayb not, not if yr studyin in aberdeen at least....
aberdeen is so small, its really really small, its THIS small...you walk down union street, thinking that ah for once u can have some time alone, go shop, look at nice stuffs , then u see an asian guy walkin on the other side of the road, then u think- ah there are more and more asian ppl in aberdeen, cool...then the guy walks closer - ah ha!! u knw the guy..its fabian (for example) seriously, this happened to me several times. trust me, u knw every asian person in aberdeen, well eventually, yr all linked...haha!
aberdeen aberdeen, i don knw what i did, but i can pretty much say that i m 'stuck' in aberdeen for at least the nex few years....haihzzz
hopefully for the better:)

oh yea journal, i passed my medical finals!! 1 more year to go and i m done with medical school....it marks the end of the beginning! O.M.G.
Results were way better than expected, i ll need to thank several ppl for this actually and without them, this wouldnt have happened...my PARENTS for sending me here , and for listening to me in times of stress in the middle of the night (in malaysia) lol!, KB dearie!! i don think i would have even manage to sit for the exams without yr support, emotionally, physically, socially, intellectually, honestly. grandma, and all my friends here in aberdeen especially the 9 of yal who came together with me:) life in aberdeen is not so bad with you guys...:)

Everything went as planned.
Graduation was nice
Venice was hmmm over-rated
Florence was better than expected
Rome was the best of italy

Browsing thru facebook, tonnes and tonnes of pics are being uploaded everyday, by the time most of us reach 25years old in say 3 years time, all of us would have finished touring the world! and i m being serious. look at the amount of holiday pics being posted on facebook day after day...its astonishing! these kids can actually tour the world before they can even earn money, how lucky kids these days, haha!!

hungry pangs kicking in, gtg

i am so freaking stressed up, nobody can imagine how stressed up i am right now, unless yr also in my shoes at this moment in time...i think this might possibly be the most stressful moment for the 10 of us here sitting for finals in aberdeen....more than the students who ve been doin this for the past 4 years here.....
i ve never wanted to pass an exam so much, i have to say, i want this more than any other exams i ve sat for in my entire life!
(i think u say that for every stage of exams u sit for)
just thinking about what s gonna happen AFTER the exams is REWARDING....ah.....ideal situation:
sue ann passes her medical finals with amazing results
goes for kb s graduation ceremony (omg i need to get a proper dress)
goes wandering around aberdeen like there s no tmr
go makan
go for dermaSchool in glasgow!!!!
trip to london
from london, take a flight to venice
and then to florence
then Rome:D:D
another few days in london with jun:)
just relax
enjoy
holiday!!!!!
oh not forgettin, moving into my new house, heaven....ah compared to my current house....
embarking on my lil business journey in aberdeen
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
life is so beautiful
1 more month of studying
praying hard that it ll all be fine :) fuh
i don knw why i m so so worried about this, haihh i need to be more confident, i really do.
u have been doin well so far, u haven been just sitting at home doin nothing, u go for classes, u work yr ass off everyday, well u play hard as well, ah....
confidence!!!! ah but not over-confident of course....haihzzz

i remember when i was like in primary six, i got so paranoid comes exam time, i stil remember UPSR, omg
i actually made my mum bought me like a whole box of 2B pencils with 2 erasers and 2 of everythin i needed just to be 'prepared'
and on TOP of that, i had to own the biggest sharperner on earth (comes together with the apit-G thing where u can screw it to the table) just so that i can sharpen my pencils during UPSR....lol!!!! looking back, now i wonder why nobody actually laughed at me last time...of mayb they did...haha! haih STRESSSSSSSS

i ve never felt so much pressure b4, this is what med school is all about....another 6 more wks of stress...STRESSSSSSSSSS
physically tired, ... nervous about seeing the dentist tmr morning

a familiar face to most malaysians out there? i think most malaysians would recognise simon cowell as the judge of american idol, knwn for his notorious, often blunt, but (for me) accurate judging on contestants on the show, i must say, i m a huge fan of simon cowell! i used to watch american idol just because of him, imagine what american idol would be like WITHOUT simon??? oh dear,
since i came to Aberdeen, i realise, NOBODY watches american idol here, i must say, i AM deprived of AMERICAN IDOL every thursday night and friday night!!! sobz!
BUT!!! just as how ameriacan idol was originaly FROM the UK - POP IDOL,
Britain has came up with a NEW (to me) reality TV show, Britain's Got Talent!
i Promise you, britan s got talent is WAY WAY more entertaining than American idol of any of the other singing competition out there!! promise!
its not just a singing competition, its all about having talent! u can sing, dance, talk, make ppl laugh, do magic on stage, just watever!!
its judged by simon cowell, amanda and pier
NOW wait a minute, did i just say simon cowell??? now how does he find the time to judge in 2 places across the globe?? gheeezzz
if he does, it means that he flies almost every other day if u think about it! lol! my god simon, beware DVT, PE man....better see yr GP for some prophylaxis...omg  i m so crapping here, too much of GP training...
anyway, back to simon, EVeRybody here absolutely AdoreS him i tell u!!
according to a magazine i was reading, simon cowell was on the top last year in terms of anual income in the entertainment industry, haha!
well, simon, i like you, and i m not complainin! haha!

as much as i advise ppl not to think about what our future here holds for us in the UK, sometimes, i cant help but to start thinking about whats installed nex for me here, its easy to just divert all yr attn to thinkin about this once you ve passed yr 4th year exams here, haha!!
i mean, we re THAT close, THAT close to 'grow up' (finally) most 23 year olds have already graduated, even with masters some. so yes sue you ve long passed the 'i ve grown up finally' stage. but..ah, i dont knw, i seem to 'grow up' really slowly,
i didnt knw what an exam was even til when i was in standard 1, i sort of shouted at my classmate for answering the wrong answers in exam..i think it was a BM paper where we had to name vegetables. i obviously looked at the paper.Miss Menon had to tell me off for doin that haha!
when i was 12, i didnt really knw who hanson was, alright i ve heard of backstreet boys, but to be really honest, i was pretty  much stil listening to what my dad listens to on the radio, i was more of a beatles fan, beegees fan, give me a beegees tape and i can pretty much tell u what song comes on nex, without looking at the song list. honest. ask my dad, i was pretty much the miss obedient at home, din really have a mind of my own back then - not that i have lots now..haha! basically, u knw what i mean..i was...slow..i started liking BSB only later when they ve passed their time...haha oh wel

come form 1, i actually didnt knw that u can 'study' for exams, like i just went to school, did my homework, and came home, watch drama series with my grandma, i was just ordinarily happy, contented with life:) haha! didnt wish or aim to hold any posts in any societies, didnt really want to bear any responsibilities, yes i grew up relatively slowly. my friends were wearing trendy clothings, i was a hefty 65kg girl standing 150cm tall if i recall correctly, haha! thick glasses (even now) to be honest, i didnt really own a jeans like a proper jeans till i was say, form 4? haha! my friends were already wearing mini skirts back in form 1

form 2 - i would say form 2 transformed my whole academic career thus far, if i were to point out a year which brought me to where i am today, it would have to be form 2 for me. haha!

form 3-5 - alot of my friends were already dating boys from other schools, and again being the slow me, i had NO interest in boys at all at that time, no idea why, i mean i just thought that it s for 'big girls' i mean i have to admit that i had some likings for one or two boys in tuition, but at the end of the day, i dont knw, din really think of having a bf, haha! and, make up -what? what? make up? arent they for mothers?
oh, and goin out alone to 1U was a major thing for me. haha i usually go with my parents. it wasnt until like college where i went out alone with friends on a regular basis.
i think my bro on the other hand grew up ALOT quicker than i did...

in college, i was stil VERY slow, 18-21 year olds. what do they do? clubbing erra haha! where ppl start driving, hanging out in pubs and clubs. ok let me tell u, i ve never actually gone clubbing in college, haha! u see, SLOW...my bro has probably done al those back in high school. dont get me wrong, i stil do alot of fun things in college. i nerd. but i do fun things as wel! dont get me wrong

ok to redeem myself, i ve gone clubbing in aberdeen several times, ok a few times. and pub sessions erm quite alot of times, i mean what else can u do here, nothing much...haha

ok i dont knw why i ended up bloggin about my life story here, i wanted to blog about how parents always warn their kids not to paktoh during school and to start paktoh only after graduation...haha wil do that later, nex post.