i think this site is officially- dead! haha! nobody reads this site anymore, which means...cheng cheng cheng!* i can write whatever i like on this site! hhaha...mayb not, not if yr studyin in aberdeen at least....
aberdeen is so small, its really really small, its THIS small...you walk down union street, thinking that ah for once u can have some time alone, go shop, look at nice stuffs , then u see an asian guy walkin on the other side of the road, then u think- ah there are more and more asian ppl in aberdeen, cool...then the guy walks closer - ah ha!! u knw the guy..its fabian (for example) seriously, this happened to me several times. trust me, u knw every asian person in aberdeen, well eventually, yr all linked...haha!
aberdeen aberdeen, i don knw what i did, but i can pretty much say that i m 'stuck' in aberdeen for at least the nex few years....haihzzz
hopefully for the better:)
oh yea journal, i passed my medical finals!! 1 more year to go and i m done with medical school....it marks the end of the beginning! O.M.G.
Results were way better than expected, i ll need to thank several ppl for this actually and without them, this wouldnt have happened...my PARENTS for sending me here , and for listening to me in times of stress in the middle of the night (in malaysia) lol!, KB dearie!! i don think i would have even manage to sit for the exams without yr support, emotionally, physically, socially, intellectually, honestly. grandma, and all my friends here in aberdeen especially the 9 of yal who came together with me:) life in aberdeen is not so bad with you guys...:)
Everything went as planned.
Graduation was nice
Venice was hmmm over-rated
Florence was better than expected
Rome was the best of italy
Browsing thru facebook, tonnes and tonnes of pics are being uploaded everyday, by the time most of us reach 25years old in say 3 years time, all of us would have finished touring the world! and i m being serious. look at the amount of holiday pics being posted on facebook day after day...its astonishing! these kids can actually tour the world before they can even earn money, how lucky kids these days, haha!!
hungry pangs kicking in, gtg
i ve never wanted to pass an exam so much, i have to say, i want this more than any other exams i ve sat for in my entire life!
(i think u say that for every stage of exams u sit for)
just thinking about what s gonna happen AFTER the exams is REWARDING....ah.....ideal situation:
sue ann passes her medical finals with amazing results
goes for kb s graduation ceremony (omg i need to get a proper dress)
goes wandering around aberdeen like there s no tmr
go makan
go for dermaSchool in glasgow!!!!
trip to london
from london, take a flight to venice
and then to florence
then Rome:D:D
another few days in london with jun:)
just relax
enjoy
holiday!!!!!
oh not forgettin, moving into my new house, heaven....ah compared to my current house....
embarking on my lil business journey in aberdeen
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
life is so beautiful
1 more month of studying
praying hard that it ll all be fine :) fuh
i don knw why i m so so worried about this, haihh i need to be more confident, i really do.
u have been doin well so far, u haven been just sitting at home doin nothing, u go for classes, u work yr ass off everyday, well u play hard as well, ah....
confidence!!!! ah but not over-confident of course....haihzzz
i remember when i was like in primary six, i got so paranoid comes exam time, i stil remember UPSR, omg
i actually made my mum bought me like a whole box of 2B pencils with 2 erasers and 2 of everythin i needed just to be 'prepared'
and on TOP of that, i had to own the biggest sharperner on earth (comes together with the apit-G thing where u can screw it to the table) just so that i can sharpen my pencils during UPSR....lol!!!! looking back, now i wonder why nobody actually laughed at me last time...of mayb they did...haha! haih STRESSSSSSSS
physically tired, ... nervous about seeing the dentist tmr morning
a familiar face to most malaysians out there? i think most malaysians would recognise simon cowell as the judge of american idol, knwn for his notorious, often blunt, but (for me) accurate judging on contestants on the show, i must say, i m a huge fan of simon cowell! i used to watch american idol just because of him, imagine what american idol would be like WITHOUT simon??? oh dear,
since i came to Aberdeen, i realise, NOBODY watches american idol here, i must say, i AM deprived of AMERICAN IDOL every thursday night and friday night!!! sobz!
BUT!!! just as how ameriacan idol was originaly FROM the UK - POP IDOL,
Britain has came up with a NEW (to me) reality TV show, Britain's Got Talent!
i Promise you, britan s got talent is WAY WAY more entertaining than American idol of any of the other singing competition out there!! promise!
its not just a singing competition, its all about having talent! u can sing, dance, talk, make ppl laugh, do magic on stage, just watever!!
its judged by simon cowell, amanda and pier
NOW wait a minute, did i just say simon cowell??? now how does he find the time to judge in 2 places across the globe?? gheeezzz
if he does, it means that he flies almost every other day if u think about it! lol! my god simon, beware DVT, PE man....better see yr GP for some prophylaxis...omg i m so crapping here, too much of GP training...
anyway, back to simon, EVeRybody here absolutely AdoreS him i tell u!!
according to a magazine i was reading, simon cowell was on the top last year in terms of anual income in the entertainment industry, haha!
well, simon, i like you, and i m not complainin! haha!
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i mean, we re THAT close, THAT close to 'grow up' (finally) most 23 year olds have already graduated, even with masters some. so yes sue you ve long passed the 'i ve grown up finally' stage. but..ah, i dont knw, i seem to 'grow up' really slowly,
i didnt knw what an exam was even til when i was in standard 1, i sort of shouted at my classmate for answering the wrong answers in exam..i think it was a BM paper where we had to name vegetables. i obviously looked at the paper.Miss Menon had to tell me off for doin that haha!
when i was 12, i didnt really knw who hanson was, alright i ve heard of backstreet boys, but to be really honest, i was pretty much stil listening to what my dad listens to on the radio, i was more of a beatles fan, beegees fan, give me a beegees tape and i can pretty much tell u what song comes on nex, without looking at the song list. honest. ask my dad, i was pretty much the miss obedient at home, din really have a mind of my own back then - not that i have lots now..haha! basically, u knw what i mean..i was...slow..i started liking BSB only later when they ve passed their time...haha oh wel
come form 1, i actually didnt knw that u can 'study' for exams, like i just went to school, did my homework, and came home, watch drama series with my grandma, i was just ordinarily happy, contented with life:) haha! didnt wish or aim to hold any posts in any societies, didnt really want to bear any responsibilities, yes i grew up relatively slowly. my friends were wearing trendy clothings, i was a hefty 65kg girl standing 150cm tall if i recall correctly, haha! thick glasses (even now) to be honest, i didnt really own a jeans like a proper jeans till i was say, form 4? haha! my friends were already wearing mini skirts back in form 1
form 2 - i would say form 2 transformed my whole academic career thus far, if i were to point out a year which brought me to where i am today, it would have to be form 2 for me. haha!
form 3-5 - alot of my friends were already dating boys from other schools, and again being the slow me, i had NO interest in boys at all at that time, no idea why, i mean i just thought that it s for 'big girls' i mean i have to admit that i had some likings for one or two boys in tuition, but at the end of the day, i dont knw, din really think of having a bf, haha! and, make up -what? what? make up? arent they for mothers?
oh, and goin out alone to 1U was a major thing for me. haha i usually go with my parents. it wasnt until like college where i went out alone with friends on a regular basis.
i think my bro on the other hand grew up ALOT quicker than i did...
in college, i was stil VERY slow, 18-21 year olds. what do they do? clubbing erra haha! where ppl start driving, hanging out in pubs and clubs. ok let me tell u, i ve never actually gone clubbing in college, haha! u see, SLOW...my bro has probably done al those back in high school. dont get me wrong, i stil do alot of fun things in college. i nerd. but i do fun things as wel! dont get me wrong
ok to redeem myself, i ve gone clubbing in aberdeen several times, ok a few times. and pub sessions erm quite alot of times, i mean what else can u do here, nothing much...haha
ok i dont knw why i ended up bloggin about my life story here, i wanted to blog about how parents always warn their kids not to paktoh during school and to start paktoh only after graduation...haha wil do that later, nex post.
1. dont knw why, i have been waking up at 4-5 am for the past 3 days, feeling really cold, my room heater s not working very well, haih i hate the feeling of COLD....
2. i think silk duvet doenst keep u warm..
3. i walked almost the whole of aberdeen today, GP in rubislaw, town union street, mathews, spring garden, uni foresterhill, belgrave terrace, haha!
4. i dont wanna get old in this country..
5. i think the GPs here do ALOT, i mean ALOT, i am very much impressed with the primary health care here in scotland, i think its just amazing.
6. if i were to stay in scotland, i ll be a GP, but i quite like internal medicine..
7. i m cooking wantan on sunday night.
8. i hope all goes well for me and my fellow imu mates this finals 4th year in june/july:)
9. raynaud's phenomenon can be real BAD.
10. i wish i knew how to repair heaters.
11. i give up on call cards. money suckers. changing to skype call..
12. i think my blog is dead.
13. i m happy today because its a happier day for him.
14. i am very sleepy.
15. exam- 11 wks time.
16. stil don knw what pharmacists do. i m sorry.
17. i knw they earn alot of money.
18. i just told deborah not to marry a surgeon.
19. i hope i can be a better friend, but i don knw.
20. i miss home. i NEED to go back.
i ll definitely MISS this place very much
i like the fact that our accomodation is o freakin huge, so near to the hospital, big kitchen, with the cleaners comin in to clean on a daily basis
i LOVE the hospital here, seriously considering working here nex year when i graduate:)
hmm now working, THATS another issue all together to think of.
kinda excited bout goin to edinburgh for the wkend, i think edin is a really really nice place to work, to stay, to go for a vacation, nice:)
i ve decided to turn up for all the MDT meetings this wk, aha! haha ! well in aber, u get free food if its a lunch time meeting or a sponsored meeting, but here u rarely get free lunch, but there was like a MAJOR FREE LUNCH back in new craigs where i did my psychiatry posting, haha!
i think i enjoyed vascular surgery quite a lot last wk...think its the most interesting wk in this block, haha
having assessments on friday before i run to the train station in the evening, oOoo hopefully i can bring all my stuf along...
miss being up there, miss everything about it,
there is no point always doing well in high school, 5As for UPSR, 7As for PMR, 11As for SPM, straight As for Aleves, top student in the form, top student in college, deans list in IMU, WHO BLOODY cares??? nobody!!!!
in fact, it doesnt bloody matter AT ALL! gheeez man... i m a disgrace to my school, college and IMU, disgrace to all msians, disgrace to all chinese, asians, whoever... haihz
sighz...
just feel rubbish these few days... 2 more days to go... i hate surgery..
i am not stupid.
but i ve been made to feel that way over the past 3 days.
2 more days to go..
haih
as i was falling asleep yst night,
i wished that the bed i was lying on was my bed at home in subang,
how i wish tat when i woke up, there s a cup of milo in the kitchen waiting for me,
when i step off the house, i don have to wear layers and layers of clothes,
when i step into the ward, i looked like everyone else, i m always the odd one out here...
not that i mind, but ...
hmmm don really have to cook this wk:)
stil have loads of tomyam fried rice and soup someone made over the wkend:)
everything seems to be so much clearer now, everythin seems to make more sense now, its not that u don need to study now that we re in 4th year, but , the things u study, ACTUALLY come to use, like if u read yr antibiotics lectures well enough, u can ACTUALLY treat a patient with pneumonia in the ward.. and listening to mitral stenosis while asking the patient to turn to the left side doesnt make more sense than when u actually do it and listen....fooooh i m amazed...
i cant wait to be in 5th year, caz by then we would have done ALL the blocks and everythin will just seem even clearer, haha...
on another note,
i just realise that i say these few phrases MANY MANY times aday
hi i m sue ann chan, 4th year med student, how are u feeling today/ where is the pacemaker theatre/ where s dr whatever's clinic??
i use the phrase 4th year medical student ever so often EVERYDAY, i JUST realise that looking back, its been 4 years of med school,
i ve gone through FOUR years in med school, its just 1 more year to go! feels like yst i was crying my ass off caz i had a vasovagal attack at the urology clinic...i m glad i stayed on...
wel i stil don like the idea of cutting ppl up tho...haha its something i tend to avoid to be honest, haha!
oh well,
til the nex post
been goin crazy over nigella lawson recently, mayb its just the way she makes everythin sounds so simple, mayb its her hair, or her english accent, haha! i made so many things yst, we baked a pizza from scratch, results : the filling was REALLY nice but the dough didnt expand as much as it should have...sighz...
also baked a pudding which turned out to be really yummy AND a coco pot, which tasted like chocolate pancake, eeeeewwww never gonna make that again, haha
i really should be studying instead of baking...
haha!
he soon developed SOB, cough, chest pain, swollen ankles... an ECG, CXRay was done. they were abnormal, CX showed enlarged mediastinum which was in line with all his symptoms..
an ECHO was also done and his LV was found to be weak.. (typical cardiomyopathy??) he has enlarged ventricals, typical of hypertrophic CMP (what we learnt in 2nd year) ...
still not interesting enough??
after a few days in the ward, he developed AF.
AF! at 23...
and he had angina as well apparently
SO
he s due for an angiogram today
he might need an implanted cardiover defib ICD
ICD at 23??? haihz
he s just the same age as me!!
well just a few points to think about, he would not have had been Dx with his condition if he had not had the drug and alcohol overdose,
he could have just had a sudden cardiac death one day
OR he might have just died of a SCD WHEN he had his alcohol overdose....
hmmm this chap is lucky to have survived this episode, but unlucky AS WELL to have this condition,
sometimes things like that makes u wonder...hmmm
sometimes things just happen, mayb it happened for a reason,
nobody knws why, nobody knws the answers to alot of things,
people say first impression matters alot, i do agree, but ,
first impression doesnt stay there forever,
last impression stays there, forever..
i wish i was nicer,
i wish it was all different,
wish i was more matured
sometimes i do think about it occasionally,
i stil dont knw the answers to alot of things, alot of decisions..
i didnt mean to,
but what else could i have done...
i have myself to blame:(
i was not strong enough...
today was the first time i actually thought about my stethoscope.. i couldnt find it! and i was SO sure that i brought it back to aberdeen...hmmm odd .... gheeeez...
anyway, i remembered, left it in the Rx room during bronchoscopy....gheeez
i will appreciate u more from now on, stethoscope:)
i ABSOLUTELY LOVE cardiorespiratory medicine!! more respiratory though:D
went for ward rounds in the morning, till noon! aha! saw so many cases, read so many ECGs, weeee happy....so nice:D:D
had no time to come home for lunch,
went for a bite at the canteen and off to clinics again! haha!
more patients to see:D
awesomeness
saw like a million chest xrays! learnt so much today!!!!!!:D consultant was brilliant, thought us a hell load of stuff...seems like a dictionary himself haha!...looks like my dad as well...
just need to study more drugs now...and more diseases...omg so much to study
but its worth it, i cant describe how this feels but i really like cardiorespiratory medicine!!!!!
gheeezzz i felt like just swallowing the whole kumar and clarke cardiology and respi section just so that i can manage those patients..haha!
my day was spoilt by a few things though,
at the chest clinic, i was sitting in with a 5th year student
one of the many many questions that was being bombared to us: an atypical TB patient came in on a wheel chair, breathless,
consultant : so, why did i ask him about his eyes?
me : well, risk of optic neuritis
consultant : oh, good. and...why is he on vit B12?
me : caz of the anti-TB drugs
consultant : which one?
me : trying to fish out the name of that drug from imu days, ISONIAZID!
consultant : and why?
me: ppl get neuropathy, so u need vit b12.
consultant : oh ! (looking amazed by all my answers)
at this point, i thought he was gonna say, oh well done or somethin, guess what he said?
consultant : ah i suppose u see more TB cases in msia (looks at 5th year)
me : tooooootttttt....speechless, honestly, i ve never even seen any TB patients back in msia in kkb or seremban, it was only in the orang asli clinic...and we don even manage them to be honest, we just had like tutorials and stuff
gheeez so i can answer those stuff because i m from msia? and not because i studied my ass off in phase 1? what the..
i think the management recently changed the automatic control for the toilet lights. (its automatic, once someone goes into te toilet, it will automatically switch on, but it ll turn off itself after some time.)
recently, it swtches off really quickly and i have to jump off shower in the middle of my soothing shower wrapped in towels just to pretend to walk into the toilet again! haha joke of the century
its getting really annoying!
worst thing is, heh i ve been listening to patients telling me all about their hallucinations, i ve been thinkin if the lights going off is a hallucination! haha scary....i was hoping not to hear any voice...lol!!
i don blame them
i mean, before i came here, this seems rather odd
we dont care about the weather in msia, as long as u keep yr baju in time, as long as it doesnt rain when u want to BBQ or if yr having yr kenduri or whatever, haha!
but here,
ppl talk about the weather ALL the time!
'its a nice day today..'
'yes it is, isnt it..'
lol!!
this conversation can be heard in the lifts, wards, supermarkets, stairs, traffic lights, wherever,
its like stating the obvious, but...yea it happens:)
its absolutely FINE here
but its NOT when u do it in msia!
haha
u ll just sound stupid and odd
haha!
'so, u drove here today?'
oh no,i RAN here *sarcasm*
haha!!
i received my osce feedback today, there s where the examiners give us subjective ratings (nothin to do with the marks we get), so..
i opened the first one, satisfactory, OK...lol so the nex few stations were somewhat satisfactory, den i saw a page which says...unsatisfactory for current level, i was like...what the..... oh well...so i walked home from the hospital feeling miserable and emo...lookin at the helicopter pad covered with snow..thinking...sighz i m just satisfactory and UNSATISFACTORY, sighzzzzzzz
had my dinner, and for some reasons, had a read of the feedback forms again. i read : HIGHLY SATISFACTORY. i was like...WHAT *happy* lol
and den i flip again , another HIGHLY SATISFACTORY *oOooo this is good... i have no idea why i dint read those 'highly satisfactory' sheets while i was walkin home, mayb i was clouded by negative emotions of being lazy the whole day, sighz, wil never skyve again...shheeezzz
i feel like goin home:(
haih
:) weeee
this is perhaps like my most 'happenin' day in psychiatry thus far i must say, well besides the free lunch we get EVERY tuesday without fail, i must say i m very well fed here, omg, ahahaha!
anyway,
went for a tribunal court hearing today :P haha full of important looking ppl in the hearing, i was acting like what a typical 4th year medical student should do, sitting down quietly beside the table...haha! funny... it was to renew a patient's CTO for another half a year, eye opener for me, consolidating the importance of STUDYING those mental health act and what not lecture notes...my god the amount of abreviations they use, there was this sentence : so dr, is the CPN involved in the CPA agreeble to the CTO? how about the MHO?? i was like...what the......hello...is this even a sentence????lol i mean i knw what they all mean now, but in the first wk i was like.....huh...
hahahaha
oh and there was like a guardianship meeting yst i went for, fuh...tension man...patient got 'mad', family does not want to care for the patient, patient stil thinks family cares, longing to be home, family wanting to put patient in care home, guardianship of patients properties??? patient capable of making decisions??in capacity?? heh complicated, i wish i never have to go for any of these meetings involving my loved ones....just horrible...
SO
went to the ward after tat, did some ward work, clerked 2 patients, did ECG, hmmm why am i rambling about my day here
headed off to TAIN!!!
good 1 hr drive to TAIN
nice consultant, nice scenery, fruitful clinic, saw some interesting patients, haha!
gooddd gooooood...
portluck yst was superb, we can all be chefs if we all dont pass med school..lol!! choi choi*
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